Big Girl Panties

I feel strange. Different. Yesterday I felt bad, sad, unhappy, and tonight, it's all just... different, as I already mentioned. Nothing happened, nothing changed, except for the fact that I suddenly feel like some strange peace came over me. I feel... like I have something to love.

Hmm... Maybe I do.

Hard to say what triggered it, but my point of view is not the same as it was yesterday. My life is still mine, but the look at it is someone else's. Only that someone else is closer to who I really am than to... well, to who I'm not, anymore.

Okay, the last one sounded a lil' bit strange even for me, but, hey, it's how I feel. I just have to say that it's great to feel something after feeling numb for so long. It's like having a meltdown after a cold winter. Like walking in the fog for too long, not really seeing anything, and finally finding your way home.
In other words, it's fucking great.