Big Girl Panties

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We all are dominated by our needs and desires. We do things only because we want to, and when we do something we don’t want to do, it means we’re under the false impression that there is no other choice.

We all have our habits, and if doing things that other people want us to do is one of them, we’re in a serious trouble. It’s hard to break them though, because all the habits seem to keep us grounded. We do what we’re used to, and that can create the unfortunate illusion of security.

But how can something we do over and over again keep us safe, and most importantly, safe from what? Doing something we always wanted but didn’t dare to do? Risking too much when the chance is too little? But isn’t it what life is about?

It seems like whenever we want to try something risky, we hear that tiny little voice that reminds us of possibility of being kicked in the balls (mind you, I don’t have balls, but still), and then we start second guessing if it’ll actually be worth it. Wouldn’t life just be sweet if we were just a little bit fearless? Short, but sweet.

Like butterflies who live only a day, hot-headed sort of people would never understand safe-siders, who spend thousands of dollars on insurance, yet never dare to go snowboarding for the fear of breaking their well insured arms and legs.

There are things worth risking for, things everyone must try at least once in a lifetime, but there’s something that often holds us back from doing them, and makes us put the risky wishes aside for another day, which seldom ever comes.

No matter how often things in the real world scare the crap out of me, I’d still rather go out there and try to give it my all, instead of waiting till it’s safe to try. Same as no matter how big my fear of heights is, it’s still one of my dreams to go and try myself in piloting one day. Facing the fear is something that we often either try to avoid or get done and over with. Taking control of it, on the other hand, is something worth having it in the first place.

Some of us would rather be safe and sound, though. Maybe this path is more suitable for a particular sort of people. Maybe it’s better to be safe than sorry.

Or maybe all we will be sorry about in the future is, that by guarding ourselves so strongly against all we’ve been afraid of, we’d missed out on all the fun that makes this life a crazy hot experience. Who knows?

We only have one life that we’ll remember. What we make of it is the reflection of our human nature: mind, body, and soul. You either follow your mind or your heart; listen to the call of your body or your soul. Whatever you choose, you’ll know if you made a right decision or not when it’s either too late or just in time. All that’s left to do is hope that we’ll do it in time.

Or instead of hoping we could just stop, take a good look around, and make a right decision now. Of course, we won’t know that it was right until it’s time to feel sorry about it…

Or grateful.

Who knows?